Tonight at the cinema, I thought about Amanda a lot. Fantastic Four was the choice for the evening. Perioidically throughout the movie I would imaging her being there with me. It seems that no matter what I do, I cannot keep her out of my thoughts. Perhaps hooking up with a girl down here would be good in more ways than one. Yeah, that sounds good.

I'm taking in quite the experience. I don't know where to start. Contrary to popular belief, Mexico isn't all that bad of a place to live. Everything is clean here. Yesterday my mother and I went to a store a few blocks away. The only thing I could compare it to would be a Super Wal-Mart. After we were here for a bit, we went to see a movie at VIP. That place does more than blow Cinema Center out of the water. Today all of us save his father went down the street to a different super center. As far as cheche goes, he's a good guy. His parents are some of the nicest people I've ever met, although it is hard communication with them, being that they speak very little English. What Spanish I do know is enough to scrape by, and that is all. I need to study more. The girls here look awesome. Whenever I see them, they are dressed very well, better than most American girls. Yes, there is a fare share of dogs, but when they're hot, they're hott. I wouldn't mind hooking up with one while I'm down here. Amanda who?

I'm looking out the window to my left. I can see vast amounts of ocean and a little sliver of the east coast of Florida. Everything looks a lot different from seven miles up. The wing is obstructing most of my view, but I can still see a fair amount. It feels good to be flying again. We should be getting to Cancun around 11a their time. I'm not anxious about meeting my mother's fiancee. Apparently, his parents will be there for two days. It will be a good chance for me to try out my Spanish skills, being that they don't speak any English. Sunday night might get a little risky. Hurricane Emily is headed straight for Cancun. From what I can gather, it's only supposed to be a Category 2, but I don't trust the general public on such matters. I'd rather find out myself from NOAA or a similar organization. Yesterday at 3p Emily was listed as a Category 4 by the National Hurricane Center, so I have no idea what to expect. Yesterday and today I have been thinking about Amanda a lot. Thursday night I had a dream that she came into Staples and then she was sitting in the parking lot during a Sunday evening 7 on 7. She was studying, perhaps reading, in the bed of a large silver truck. Can't I have a normal dream?

I don't feel as if I had experienced anything lately that would merit an entry, yet I force myself to write. Aches and pains were with me today in my back and my legs. Being able to quoat 405lbs. is a nice thing, but at what cost does it come? I went to my grandparents today for a while, surfing the 'net and realizing all the things I want to buy. Around 5 o'clock my mother came. We went to Wal-Mart for a few things before going to my dad's to get the notarized statement. I was there for longer than I planned, but I didn't talk to my dad much. Most of my time there was spent with Jared. So Cancun comes Saturday. Most of my stuff for the trip is ready, but I haven't really been thinking about it. I haven't been thinking about anyone/thing lately. Strangely, Amanda hasn't occupied my thoughts at all. I wonder if it has anything to do with the instant messenger conversation on the eighth. Perhaps my mond took in the situation and adapted accordingly.

At around 10 this morning, Nick and Kevin knocked on my door. I didn't go to practice Thursday and I planned to do the same today, but things worked out differently. At practice I gave Diehl ten dollars and patched things up with him. I was off work today, so I ventured to my grandparents for a bit. I planned to order some contacts on-line, but I ended up not, so now I have fifty dollars sitting in my wallet and nothing to spend it on. Perhaps I should save it for Cancun. While I was at my grandparents' I chatted with amanda briefly over the internet. For some reason I got the impression that she didn't like me. Her statements and responses were short, somewhat unlike her. While this certainly did not come as a relief, it is as if I had expected this all along. I do not know wheter to give up hope or keep moving. Maybe I can relax and live a little in Mexico.

An average day it was. Work was all the same today. Katie stopped in for awhile around six or so. After chatting for a bit in my mother's room, the three of us got a pizza at O.I.P.'s. On the way home we stopped to get Rita'a and two movies. The Pacifier and The Empire Strikes Back. When we got home I left and went to see if Amanda was working, which, as per my luck, she was not. tonight, a thought of mine scared me. I saw Amanda taking a stroll with someone else. I hope to God I'm being over-anxious. If anything will be my downfall, it will be the wait until July.

*(Note: In the last line, I was speaking about mid-July when she got back from scout camp. I knew it was July at the time, but I didn't specify further, as I should have.)*

It was a rather boring day today. I slept in a little too much this morning, which caused me to miss football practice, but according to Diehl, I didn't miss much. I spent most of the day watching t.v., and in the afternoon I watched Jerry Maguire. I did manage to find an old tape of Berwick's '88 state championship game, which incedentily had my coach on it. Something to show him I suppose. I think I shall go see Amanda while she is working this weekend. I don't plan on teller her, I just want to keep it to some flirting and judge her responses. I proabably should call her on Friday, as well. I'm thinking next weekend would be a good time, after testing the waters this Saturday. We're still poor. Mom brought home hotdogs and chips from AAA for dinner. WE went to Mom-mom and Pop's house tonight for a bit. After not being there for awhile, it felt good to be back. I watched a little bit of Coach Carter with Mom-mom and talked some politics with Pop. I surfed the net for a bit, checking up on my horoscope. Apparently, next weekend is soing to be good for romance, a good sign.