I can't believe what I've become. How can I be so damn stupid. If I could die right now, I would. I've always told myself that I wouldn't be that kind of guy. What the fuck am I doing? Fuck. I need Amy so bad now it hurts. I need her. Without her, I am a worthless piece of shit. I miss her so much, then I go do stupid shit. I need major help. I need every kind of help.